Nine;

ya zaman, ya zaman, ya zaman

oh father time, she says

won't you slow down for me?

i don't think He can 

even if He wanted to

the oud is strung while the dervishes spin

&

there's little lines where her smile fades

but the mischievousness never will

grandmothers/grandfathers and all the love they'll never show

from a world her children do not know

from a world her parents were never from

(oh, generations)

your oriental mind weighs heavy now

the burden of another Atlas, they say

running/run/running

did you stop to see his smile in the sun?

there's a laugh carried by the wind 

i hear it now.

i see what i couldn't before,

the blur comes to a halt;

and there you are in front of me

and there i am in front of you.

Eight;

back.
back in your mother's arms.
jolt back to a different time/
strolling through the markets of your heart.
heart
conflicted hearts,
& damaged souls.
wistful dreams,
& mischievous adventures.
the future is yet to come they say but look he's at the door.
wedding cakes&birthday cakes;
they all taste much too sweet.
we are youth.
we are the youth.
we are youth.
and as the sun comes out to say farewell,
she's back again.
back where you needed to be/
back as if she'd never left/
she is home.

Seven;

we love but are not loved back
in the way we deserve
we give
all
we are consumed
complete me
we are no more than destroyed
hearts
and still we search
and still we search
and still we search
still we love
for what is a life without love?

Six;

1) sunshine
creep inside me: explosion/implosion/delusion
it's a new day.
or so we thought?
a (false) sense of hope/ a (ray) of light
while you sit and wait for time to change your luck
i'm blinded.
moving in slow motion; blink &
it's a new day.
don't take yourself so seriously. 
the echoes. are echoing.
& the darkness will always be there.
it's a new day
how long can you wait for the one you deserve?
lifetimes.
either way, it's a new day;

2) my sense of wonder's just a little tired. 
& I won't lie, it kind of always is.
somedays I wake up & I know this isn't home.
somedays I wake up & I know this is where i'm meant to be.
fluidity.
a nomad, lost.
a nomad, found.
open heart. open mind.
engulfed spirit.
daughter of the moon & the mind.
see i'm in love with how your soul's a mix of art & chaos/
& how you never try to keep them apart;

3) longing for the day
it will all make sense
the lilies are in bloom/
the tide hits the shore.
beam down
ancient woes, glory be
soft smiles, hopeful smiles, wonderous smiles.
& though the fear in my heart still drives me over the edge
it's a new day;

Five;

so today I wrote a song for you
you'll never hear it but maybe you'll read this
wishful thinking?

I don't know I guess I thought we'd run into each other eventually
maybe there's still time//no need anymore
funny how things work

someone called me lovely once, but it wasn't you
blessed be the broken/
blessed be the ones who broke us

what's on your mind? 
i couldn't tell you even if i tried

i rest on childhood memories 
we all got old at breakneck speed
slow it down, go easy on me 

I've got so many memories & no where to put them.

momentum's building, isn't it?

i'm not okay, but i will be.
down, down in my bones
i'll always be just fine.

Four;

i was only playing with the moon
let me inhale your spirit.
exhume your soul.
betray me.
l.
o.
v.
e.
me.
fear me.
look me in the eye & make me believe;
there's no more to life than what we perceive
there's more to life than what we see
but i, i've got 
a war on my mind/
a world on my shoulders
a wounded heart.
(ego)
meditation meditate meditation
for semblance
of peace of mind.
i let my mind wander & it never came back.
and after it all,
i was only playing with the moon.

Three;

it's a whole other world out there. 

unprecedented rage/

the children asked for none of this

fire in their lungs/

strength in their fight.

there's empathy here;

a power from deep within. 

I wanna be king in your story

but I'm already the Queen.