Eight;

back.
back in your mother's arms.
jolt back to a different time/
strolling through the markets of your heart.
heart
conflicted hearts,
& damaged souls.
wistful dreams,
& mischievous adventures.
the future is yet to come they say but look he's at the door.
wedding cakes&birthday cakes;
they all taste much too sweet.
we are youth.
we are the youth.
we are youth.
and as the sun comes out to say farewell,
she's back again.
back where you needed to be/
back as if she'd never left/
she is home.

Saturn;

in the blink of an eye, it's all morphed. i went back a full year later, and it was no longer the safe haven i'd known, the pub on the corner where i got over it all/him. closed; opened; new.

time is shiftable, & i've used that before. 

walk with me, won't you? slow dancing in a burning room. memory lane is crumbling with every step; it's all illuminated now when i look back and see your smile. is that a glint of madness in your eye? it matches mine. 

mischief & magic;

daylight's imploding into the night sky's stars. 

"don't be so cynical," he says. we're still dancing and the room is on fire and you're explaining the infinite.

how rare & beautiful it is to even exist/

i couldn't help but ask for you to say it all again/

i tried to write it down but i could never find a pen/

i'd give anything to hear you say it one more time/

that the universe was made just to be seen by my eyes;

everything changes but somehow we're all still exactly the same, exactly where we need to be. i didn't know it while it was melting all around me but the year that just happened was the year of a lifetime. truly/ brutally/ honestly. 

but nothing baffled me more than seeing you at the end of that crumpled, bashed down little road. 

"hello my old heart," he says. 

SMILE. SHIFT. REPEAT.

Mayhem;

death is a many splendored thing. and so is love. and so is life. i love the vastness of it all, the lonliness, the spark. which one am i talking about anyhow? i like to play games, come play one with me. you won't be sorry, i promise. light & dark, night & day, we're all connected. the red string passes through us all; everyone we see, every smile we share, every decibel of pain we cause. watch what you say but stay true to yourself. irony is raining from the sky, frogs are hitting you in the face. death is not the end, and life is not the beginning. head up, chin higher. i'll never let you fall. not then, not now, not ever. to be or not to be, the only question that's on my mind.