Me; Myself; I;

and i want a moment to be real;
 you can run in circles all you want but you'll never belong. not really anyway. people are so strange and unexpected and predictable and.
and you'll never be able to wear the mask the way they do, and you'll never be able to run away from what you feel and you'll never let them take advantage of you.
the way you speak/ the clothes you wear/ the blood in your veins; it's not theirs.
and it doesn't have to be.

i'll never let anyone change me. not anymore.
if this year has taught me anything, it's that no one can be trusted and no one can make me love myself any less. you were good for laughs but i don't need your toxic venom in my life, i really don't.
it dragged me down, it made me question myself in ways i really didn't even care about, it was sad.
i'm sorry that i said goodbye, but i found something better along the way.
and i'm walking alone from here on out.

Mayhem;

death is a many splendored thing. and so is love. and so is life. i love the vastness of it all, the lonliness, the spark. which one am i talking about anyhow? i like to play games, come play one with me. you won't be sorry, i promise. light & dark, night & day, we're all connected. the red string passes through us all; everyone we see, every smile we share, every decibel of pain we cause. watch what you say but stay true to yourself. irony is raining from the sky, frogs are hitting you in the face. death is not the end, and life is not the beginning. head up, chin higher. i'll never let you fall. not then, not now, not ever. to be or not to be, the only question that's on my mind.