Five;

so today I wrote a song for you
you'll never hear it but maybe you'll read this
wishful thinking?

I don't know I guess I thought we'd run into each other eventually
maybe there's still time//no need anymore
funny how things work

someone called me lovely once, but it wasn't you
blessed be the broken/
blessed be the ones who broke us

what's on your mind? 
i couldn't tell you even if i tried

i rest on childhood memories 
we all got old at breakneck speed
slow it down, go easy on me 

I've got so many memories & no where to put them.

momentum's building, isn't it?

i'm not okay, but i will be.
down, down in my bones
i'll always be just fine.

Four;

i was only playing with the moon
let me inhale your spirit.
exhume your soul.
betray me.
l.
o.
v.
e.
me.
fear me.
look me in the eye & make me believe;
there's no more to life than what we perceive
there's more to life than what we see
but i, i've got 
a war on my mind/
a world on my shoulders
a wounded heart.
(ego)
meditation meditate meditation
for semblance
of peace of mind.
i let my mind wander & it never came back.
and after it all,
i was only playing with the moon.

Three;

it's a whole other world out there. 

unprecedented rage/

the children asked for none of this

fire in their lungs/

strength in their fight.

there's empathy here;

a power from deep within. 

I wanna be king in your story

but I'm already the Queen.

Two;

what a blessed & beautiful year it's been.
meetings in the moonlight/
dancing in the starlight;
laughter in the wind
planes in the sky
loves&losses
tears/smiles.
up & down we go,
hellos & goodbyes.
here comes the sun.
but truly, honestly, deeply
what a lovely time to have been alive. 

One;

I always felt that it was wrong/to lay my world in foreign hands

it all got mixed up in my head,

move here/ move there/ move

sun. shadow. sand. snow.

confuddled.

who are you going to be?

a solid question, she says/

any answers? look the other way;

I see a way out & I can hear an echo that begs to be followed

that's

a 

lot

of 

question

marks

I don't have anything figured out, but does it matter anymore?

i'm sure no one has anything figured out

that's the only thing I do know, really.

I see a way out & I can see the sun on the horizon 

just call me foreigner;

I Don’t Know;

Sometimes I think of you.
Sometimes I forget you existed.
Sometimes the books are enough & sometimes they’re not.
Sometimes I sit & sing along to all the songs that make my heart ache/
Sometimes I dance.

And life is hard sometimes. Things happen that you can’t plan for, things happen to the ones you love and some things make you see it all through his eyes.
People grow apart/ people make mistakes/ the flower blooms & then there’s the moon.
And you grow and you grow and you grow but somehow you’re still the smallest person in the room.

But he’s sick and there’s nothing I can do about it.
But he’s leaving me and there’s nothing I will do to stop it.
And he’s crippled by life without her but she’s the goldest hour.

There she is. glorious/ petrified/ stupefied/ magnanimous. but there she is.

I can’t breathe; I can’t breathe; I can’t breathe. And guess again, I can’t breathe.

(You’ve been here before)

It’s not that serious anyway.

She's Thunderstorms;

breathe.

breathe.

breathe.

have you inhaled me in yet?

toxic fumes/ or so they say,

who am i to talk?

baby, i'd rather be hard to love 

than easy to leave.

the world's moving in slow motion.

freeze frame. eyes meet.

we've sped up now.

but i got news for you, i came broken.

rain fall/

i guess you i let go.