I Don’t Know;

Sometimes I think of you.
Sometimes I forget you existed.
Sometimes the books are enough & sometimes they’re not.
Sometimes I sit & sing along to all the songs that make my heart ache/
Sometimes I dance.

And life is hard sometimes. Things happen that you can’t plan for, things happen to the ones you love and some things make you see it all through his eyes.
People grow apart/ people make mistakes/ the flower blooms & then there’s the moon.
And you grow and you grow and you grow but somehow you’re still the smallest person in the room.

But he’s sick and there’s nothing I can do about it.
But he’s leaving me and there’s nothing I will do to stop it.
And he’s crippled by life without her but she’s the goldest hour.

There she is. glorious/ petrified/ stupefied/ magnanimous. but there she is.

I can’t breathe; I can’t breathe; I can’t breathe. And guess again, I can’t breathe.

(You’ve been here before)

It’s not that serious anyway.

She's Thunderstorms;

breathe.

breathe.

breathe.

have you inhaled me in yet?

toxic fumes/ or so they say,

who am i to talk?

baby, i'd rather be hard to love 

than easy to leave.

the world's moving in slow motion.

freeze frame. eyes meet.

we've sped up now.

but i got news for you, i came broken.

rain fall/

i guess you i let go. 

Answered;

is this what you were trying to say?

Out Of Sight;

 i can save us. or at least i thought i could. seems i'm actually quite incapable of holding on to anything but a grudge really. strange, every time i think i've got it right. strange, every time i'm so terribly wrong. happiness is such a hard concept to grasp for me. i've been in the dark for so long now, when i see the sun it blinds. gouges my eyes out like Oedipus; frightened frenzy. he can see now can't he? is that what it takes? a truth so magnanimous that it shatters your very core; mine was the day i woke up and realized he wouldn't love me the way i would never love any of them. cosmic comedy. there's still hope, but there probably isn't. tell me, what'd you think of my songs? but i am good, i am grounded. i always have to take a step back. back. back. keep going, you're almost there. moving in retrograde. he left her lonely with a diamond mind.