Thoughts;

I haven't moved in hours. the rain falls outside my window, and i can see the drops racing down the glass around me. but i won't get up to find the winner. there's a steady playlist on right now, new bands i've discovered today and some i've turned to for years. the districts, cage the elephant, the killers, onerepublic, the damnwells..the list goes on and on and on. maybe i'll tell you about it some day. when it's not so gloomy outside, and the sun comes out to play. i've started some new books too. i never used to be able to read more than one at a time, but lately i'm changing it up. i want more, more knowledge, more wisdom, more perspective. some books just grab you, you know? i can't explain it really, i can't read it for you. you might not even like it, but then that's your problem not mine. i never used to like poetry either, but lately i've been reading more and more of it. maybe some more of that new something i'm always searching for. or it might be because they're so convenient, so short & sweet.
more, more, more. i'm unsatiable. is that good or bad? i'm rambling again. i do that a lot, get used to it. two of them caught my attention today, the poems i mean. they're dramatic and annoying but oh so deep and enlightening. dangerous combination. i don't know. that's the motto of my life, i don't know i don't know i don't know. maybe i'll never know. maybe i'm okay with that. but what i'm hoping, what i'm praying is that i'm on the edge. the edge of something new, something undiscovered, something incredible. or something devastating. devastatingly beautiful. wrap me up in lavender thunder. i read that once, years ago. somewhere. i can't remember anymore. i hope it's not copyrighted. i think i'll go now.